| In & Out |
[Dec. 31st, 2008|06:15 pm] |
Today officially marks the last day of year 2008
In just a few hours' time, a brand new year will start
Some things may change, some things may remain
I have too much to say about year 2008
It was never a good year as much as I remember
Many told me to beware of the year when you turn Secondary Three, why?
Because that is the "Evil" year when people change the most
I guess I turned a deaf ear to that advice, because this year was like a roller coaster ride
With me in it, turning left & right, going up & down, together with the most horrible upside down turn
I have never lost so much before
As I embark on the journey to my last year in a Secondary school,
I await new challenges and anticipate the future God has in store for me
I know it will be of no use if I continue to regret or grasp year 2008
because it will be over in a minute
All I want to do now is,
to live life to the fullest
and continue my walk with God
as new situations present themselves right before me
I regret to say,
2008 has been a wasteful year for me
but I will strive on to make sure 2009 will be a better year
I believe it will too.
Sister: I always come to you for advice and even though you reject me at times, I'm really glad you are my real-blooded sis! You are the very best. Remember we will be together forever (hehe)! Thank you for all your advices and I will take them to heart. I still hope you will allow yourself to grow closer to God & (finally) come join me in church. I believe you are the best sister on earth & I thank God for everything we'd been through together. I love you, Beloved Princess!
Roxane: We had been friends since P5 and I am really glad God planned for us to cross path. Thank you so much for always being you! Because of your innocence & pure heart, we have never fought and we click really well. I do remember our plans for the future but whatever it is, I just want to say Thank you for always being so understanding about everything and your listening ear is greatly appreciated :) I love you Best friend!
L clique: We practically mastered the art of keeping 5-people friendship even without constant keeping in touch or hanging out. I appreciate the whole lot of you girls and I thank God we five are as "one"! I love the four of you so much, words can't tell. Thank you for everything you four have put into my life, my fav girls!
Yeyeng: Throughout this year, we'd had only one minor misunderstanding and I'm glad everything fell right into place now. Thank you so much for year 2008, it would have been worse without you, Yy/Cutie Pie/Clostie. I thank God for putting you into my life just the right time. You have been there for me in almost every way, and I just want you to know I do appreciate you & treasure our friendship to the bits! Thank you so much for everything, I love you, from the bottom of my heart!
Keisha: You are the greatest Muffin/Buddy/Sweetcakes. Thank you so much for all the help you'd given to me. We (almost)literally went through thick and thin together. I thank God I got to know you so much more, you truly are a great friend! I do appreciate everything that you did, and our friendship is treasured. I love you, Buddy!
Amelyn: We knew each other since P2 (year 2001). I thank God for allowing you back into my life after 4 years of not contacting! You are a rare friend, and I'm glad we understand each other. You know (almost) every single time when I am down, and somehow your listening ear & advices & words could cheer me up. Thank you so very much for absolutely everything Sweetest, I appreciate it. I love you, P2BFFFL!
Rachel: We've had quite a number of conflicts this year but I'm glad God put them into our lives because we'd grown mature after each one! I thank God for your change, and I believe many saw it. Thank you for everything, I do appreciate our friendship! We may be on different wavelength at times, but none of this matter and I love you, Rachie ;)!
Illiana: I'd grown closer to you in Secondary 2 & we'd been through so much together! You are a good friend, and I thank God for His plan for me to meet you. Your family has been the sweetest ever, and I'm so glad I got to know them all. You're really fortunate to be able to have an extended family full of love & adoration for you :) I love you, God-sis!
Also, Thank you Mere Gwen Zoey Sacha Atwell Darrell Max Sue Ying Chimene Randi Chloe Amanda Sarah Shann Sharon Charissa Melody Siok Hoon Siok Hong for everything. I thank God I got to know you guys :)
Lastly, I just want to thank everyone & anyone who has been there for me in one way or another in 2008
You are greatly appreciated! & I wanna thank God for you :)
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| 2009 |
[Dec. 31st, 2008|01:50 am] |
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I'm not wishing for anyone to listen to my cries but shouldn't anyone do anything about something here? I actually thought I knew you, I really did. It pained me having to hear from others and as much as I chose not to believe it, I eventually had to in the end. It wasn't much of a choice especially since I could find nothing at all to prove otherwise. It's ridiculous having weird assumptions in my mind all the time. As far as I know, you were never like that and I really did hope nothing I heard was real. As time went by, too many things were on my mind but you. You were still the most significant thought. I kept asking myself why. I kept asking how on earth did things get this way. Was it all my fault? You may think I still haven't realize my mistake but I gather I finally know the answer to my question. I just have one thing to say: People change, the world evolves but life goes on. What you thought of me came as a shock of disgust to myself because I never knew how my actions in my everyday-life could allow these thoughts into your mind. I know it is entirely beyond my control to have your forgiveness and nothing I can do, or even change, could allow you back into my life just as I had intended. From this second onwards, I am going to choose not to absorb any words I hear about you and let my impression of you go on like how it always has been. You were the truest friend I ever had. |
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